Saturday, April 11, 2015

A walk after an April rain

It's been about three years since I started this blog, and looking back on a few of my posts from the beginning, I was still working a full time office job at a company in the middle of a bustling business district in Tokyo, squishing into the morning commuter trains and dreaming of being outdoors in the sunshine, dreaming of one day, somehow being able to make a living through creative work. Not knowing exactly how to go about accomplishing that, except to keep shooting and shooting photos, rushing out of the office on weekday evenings to meet models, practicing on weekends as well.

Plenty of times I felt discouraged or depressed that I would never be considered good enough. But something happened as I continued to schedule shoot after shoot - I started to really love it. I gave it my all in a way that I had never given myself to other art forms in the past, in that I didn't allow myself to give up easily. It took a very long time for me to develop a sense for what I was doing; like all forms of art, it simply takes endless hours of experience, both actively shooting and learning to judge what it was I liked about a photograph. And then how to consistently produce something I liked.

So much has happened in the last few years, so much change and growth and learning, and I can't stop feeling grateful for my current life. Freelancing definitely comes with its challenges, but I'm so thankful to be doing what I love and make enough to cover my living expenses here in Tokyo. I feel happiest being busy and creating and sharing with you all.

Thank you, dear followers, for being here and accompanying me on this journey!