I experimented with creating these self-portraits the other day. I love how photography can express so many moods and emotions without using words. So far, it feels like I have just touched the tip of the iceberg, and there are so many styles of photography and ways of expression I can try out.
I first remember holding a camera when I was in elementary school. It was a disposal type, the kind where you take 20-30 pictures and turn it in to develop the film inside. On a school field trip, I had taken photos of the landscape, artifacts we saw, my friends. Afterward, I remember staring at the photos in hands and feeling proud I had taken them.
After moving to Japan, I saved up and purchased my first DSLR. At first, I was unused to the bulkiness and the extra degrees of control, so different from my beloved little Powershot. For the first few years, I couldn't find myself completely comfortable lugging one around, and I couldn't figure out how to focus correctly for the longest time. I fell into the routine of every day work, forgot to create, and lost sight of why I was doing what I was doing. There something missing, some empty feeling there that I couldn't explain.
Hitting this point, I told myself it was time to start over. I didn't know what I should do, but for the time being, I knew I had to make things, express, put it out into the world, no matter how small or insignificant. I started a new blog, and began to post a few snapshots here and there, writing a few lines about my days. I didn't think too much about what was expected of me from others, just wrote what I felt and posted what I liked. Gradually, the emptiness began to fill, and I naturally grew happier. I realized, what I needed to do was to create.
I became obsessed about improving my photography. I learned the ways to use my camera that were best for me, and started carrying it around everywhere again. Some days I didn't even have the chance take a proper photo, but having it with me carried a sense of comfort. I began to set up shoot after shoot per week. I found a new way to connect with people, to reach other creative minds. I felt so purely fulfilled during each shoot, and I thought that this is something I wanted to do day after day.
The story just begins from here. I know everything has happened for a reason, and it all fits together somehow.
There are no limits, only those that you choose to set for yourself.