Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Estimations of Fate


Good evening from Tokyo, all! What with the many photoshoot blog entries I've been posting lately, it's been a while since I just made a regular old *blog* blog, hasn't it? The days have been quite hectic lately, with new challenges and new things to work at. I am quite excited that I'm getting to meet such interesting and pretty people to do photoshoots with, and I feel myself slowly improving and honing my skills. It would be so amazing if I could take this passion further some time. But for now, I'll just enjoy the process and the way it slowly fills me with color.


 Lunchtime relaxation period.


Tied to something.


 It feels strange and difficult to describe, this unrelentingly ascent into the mid-twenties. I keep feeling, all the time, where have the days gone? How is it possible for time to continue accelerating at a faster and faster pace, leaving me powerless to stop it and all that comes with it? As a middle school kid, then high school kid, you knew - ah, after this comes college, after that comes work, after that comes... You didn't really understand beforehand what each of those would substantially materialize into in your future reality. You just kind of assumed this image in a cloud, the hints and concepts you gathered from other people and media and society.
Being out here, living and working in Tokyo, having been here for several years... I feel grounded and stable in some ways, yet also like I'm swimming in an infinitely spreading ocean. The world is so huge, with a dizzying number of possibilities. I can easily see how making one choice or another would lead to this path, or that one.
If only I could have time, time, time... and do everything!
Perhaps I would collapse though :)

In other news, I went to the dentist for the first time in Japan today. It was really quite nice, not bad at all, and I should have just gone in for that basic cleaning earlier instead of being nervous and afraid of how it might be compared to back in the US. And I even got some minty floss! Feels good to keep your teeth clean and healthy.